Sunday, June 21, 2009

Deep in the recesses of my mind, where I thought they lay hidden...they now creep..

This is what I was doing this time last year. June 22, 2008. What seemed like a normal day. A really hot day. A day that I did not feel well, and thought I was getting third trimester morning sickness back after being ok for a few months. This apparently was about the same time my daughter, while inside her mommy (who should be protecting her and knowing what is going on ) was having a bilateral middle cerebral artery infarction (better known as stroke) While I opened gifts and joked and ate cake, my daughter was in the beginning stages of fighting for her life. I can't quite wrap my head around it. How did I not know. How did something not scream at me get her out..something is wrong!!! What the hell was wrong with me. It wasn't until the next weekend they hospitalized me, only to send me home go back in on Monday and have them try to induce. How did I not know my precious angel was in distress. How did the idiot dr's not realize that when fetal variablitily is flat, and you fail a biophysical profile that is NOT a good thing, so bring the baby out, start stroke protocol...get her out of there. Hind sight is a funny thing. All the things I should've done, should've said, should've fought for. As the babys birthday gets closer I find myself struggling with the events of last year and the events leading up to now. We have come a long way for sure from those first few NICU days, but honestly it haunts me. It sits in the deep in my mind waiting for a weak moment to pray on me, make me remember how terrified I was (and still am) for all the things my daughter has gone thru. Never really having an answer, or an answer to if it could happen again. Speculative doesn't work with me. But, I look at my monkey, my beautiful, strong, bright eyed, happy monkey, and remember that it all worked out. SO no matter how hard it is to relive it right now, it turned out ok. She is ok. We will be OK. It may take time, but it will happen. And as we near the celebrating of monkeys 1 year birthday all I ask for her for her birthday is seizure freedom. The rest will be nice, but SF would be like Christmas. We let monkey have cake tonight. Because I don't know (thanks to ACTH) when she will be able to have her party. SO she enjoyed making a mess of cake tonight . A pre birthday cake smushing. So, while there is no doubt that from June 22nd until July 13th I am going to be more of a basket case than usual, I will try and persevere and be strong, because monkey needs me to be. Especially in NY.I will do my best to try and stuff this back in the dark closet from which it came. Hopefully I'll have some good news to report soon.

Thanks all.

Friday, June 19, 2009

HUGE news on the IS research front!

I'll post about us soon...I promise. I know you guys are just waiting for me to drone on and on about waiting to go to NYU for ACTH. (lol) In the is some great news from CHOP about having the FIRST mouse model for research!

Findings in Epilepsy Gene in Animals May Guide Treatment Directions for Infants
    PHILADELPHIA, June 1 /PRNewswire-USNewswire/ -- Researchers studying a
difficult-to-treat form of childhood epilepsy called infantile spasms have
developed a line of mice that experiences seizures with features closely
resembling those occurring in patients with infantile seizures. These
genetically engineered mice provide a new opportunity for scientists to
test treatments that may benefit children.

"Approximately one out of every 100 infants has a seizure. Many of them
go on to have epilepsy -- characterized by recurrent seizures. One obstacle
to developing better therapies for children has been the lack of a good
animal model," said study leader Jeffrey A. Golden, M.D.,
pathologist-in-chief at The Children's Hospital of Philadelphia.

Golden's team described a new mouse model for infantile spasms on May
12 in an online study in the journal Brain.

Infantile spasms are a type of seizure that occurs in an estimated 1 in
2000 to 1 in 6000 babies, with onset between ages three months and one
year. During the seizures, infants have jerking movements and abnormal
brain waves (seen on EEGs). "Children with infantile spasms often have a
poor developmental outcome," said Golden. "Despite current treatment, many
children with infantile spasms go on to develop lifelong epilepsy and
varying degrees of mental retardation."

Finding a treatment for infantile spasms is crucial. "If we could
better treat the infantile spasms, it is very possible some of these later
problems could be prevented," added Golden.

Neurologists previously knew that mutations in Arx, the X-linked
aristaless-related homeobox gene, were associated with abnormal brain
development, neurocognitive problems, and with childhood neurological
conditions involving seizures and spasms.

Golden's team developed genetically engineered mice in which the Arx
gene was removed from interneurons, a type of brain cell that inhibits
electrical firing in brain circuits. Removing the gene's role appears to
have resulted in overexcited brain cells and seizures in the mice. The
seizures resembled human infantile spasms. Equally exciting to the
researchers, these mice had another brain wave abnormality similar to that
found in children with infantile spasms -- an abnormal background EEG.

"This is the first genetic model of a developmental epilepsy, and even
more importantly, it was generated by mutating the same gene that can be
found mutated in humans with infantile spasms," said Golden. In an
unexpected development, the researchers found that half of the female mice
carrying the mutation also developed seizures. Because the mutation occurs
on the X chromosome, it was expected that male mice would have seizures,
which was true, and that all the females would be unaffected carriers,
which was not the case.

This discovery prompted the researchers to take a closer look at human
families with an infantile spasms patient. They found that the patients'
mothers (14 women) had experienced normal development. But of the patients'
nine other relatives -- sisters, aunts and a cousin -- six had neurological
problems, including four with epilepsy. The neurological problems included
varying degrees of mental retardation or other learning disabilities. These
findings, said Golden, will immediately change the evaluation and testing
of women with mental retardation and epilepsy, particularly in families
with other affected individuals.

This new finding will also assist genetic counselors in advising
parents who already have a child with an Arx mutation and are contemplating
having another child.

Going forward, Golden said, this new animal model provides an important
tool: an opportunity to begin testing drugs in the mice to identify
potential treatments for children. "We can screen existing drugs to see if
they are effective against this type of epilepsy," said Golden, adding that
understanding the biological mechanism by which infantile spasms develop
may also lead to more specific treatments.

Golden and first author Eric D. Marsh, M.D., Ph.D., are both from
Children's Hospital and the University of Pennsylvania. Other co-authors
were Amy Brooks-Kayal, of the Children's Hospital, Denver and the
University of Colorado; and faculty members of the University of Chicago;
Vanderbilt University; the University of Rotterdam, Netherlands; and the
University of Pennsylvania School of Medicine. The National Institutes of
Health, the American Epilepsy Society/Milken Family Foundation and The
Children's Hospital of Philadelphia provided funding support for this

Marsh et al, "Targeted loss of Arx results in a developmental epilepsy
mouse model and recapitulates the human phenotype in heterozygous females,"
Brain, published online May 12, 2009.

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